Your going to be a grandma...........

..........Those were the words I heard tonight. I know some people just can not wait til they hear those words but Im not one of them. Its not that Im vain and don't want to be called grandma.
The looks faded a long time ago and with that the vanity too. Its the fear of what my youngest daughter may go threw on this new path.

I had extremely high risk pregnancies and my health has suffered greatly from it. I dont want to see my daughter go threw what I went threw so many years ago. And with the new threat of the swine flu and pregnancy is extremely scary.

I was once young and in love, all I wanted was a family. A normal family where the husband goes to work and mom stays home and raised the kids. Has dinner on the table every night I wanted to be June cleaver from leave it to Beaver. You know the house the picket fence the two kids and a dog. But life had other plans I ended up a single parent raising 2 kids. My oldest daughter lived with my mom. The two youngest had health issues, so there were hospitals and doctor visits and surgeries along the way. I don't think I ever got to actually enjoy raising my kids. It was constantly filled with worry, struggles and fear. Who would ever want a life like that for their kids but the way things are today that is what happen way to often.

And she is quitting her job in two weeks... I figured she would be working her way up to management. Her husband to be is a pizza delivery boy. How in the world will he provide a home, and keep bills paid food on the table as a pizza delivery boy.....